12.05 am just reached home and I am still crying, my tears cant stop coming down...haha~~~ I know I should not cry but I really cant stop it........I am sorry~~~~~~~~~
So ytd was his game cosplay competition, he won, he was so excited. So excited until he almost forgot about me, I know it is not his fault. But I just want to hug him.... told him I am so happy for him. I dun want his prize, I just want him to give me a chance to hug him.
From 3+ in the afternoon I reached there, but he is not himself, at least not my anata, I cant have him, cos so many ppl wanted to take his photo, well I really happy for him. Then just a kiss, I know his busy, very busy, and I cant help him, I cant do anything for him. I played BANG with them, but my eyes always looking for him, always. Because of him I cancelled my tuition, when he is on the stage, I wished he will hug me 1st, but he just walked pass me and asked for help to take out his wing....
I told myself that wing very heavy, his should take out 1st. After he dress down, 1st thing he ask me is abt him wallet and hand phone, den came to me ask where is his prize...haha~~~den walk off.... At the moment, I really cant take it...feel that the prize really more important than me or more important than give me a hug..... I was very angry..........den I start to emo....emo walking.....emo following him, while I was at the back and he was far far in front..... ps me....oh~~~that is one more kiss when we were walking out the hall....haha~~~~~that's it.............................. emo emo emo emo....... and the most angry part was after dinner, finally he rmb to hug me, I was so happy that I can finally hug him den he walked off again...........one and only time he put his arm around me for just 10 secs.....haha...........And I wanted this hug from the start.............how pathetic................
Maybe I just expect too much from him............
