haha~~he was so shocked and excited by my suggestion. chalet is just a little thing that is in my mind. I have some plan which is even bigger than that. Of cause, I am not going to tell him. I dun know his reaction would be so big..... It's funny to see him like that, talking with no sense at all.

Anata, I love you!

Sometime, I just feel very hard to talk to him, I know I am not good at showing my true self to the world. But I dun know what should i say to let him know what i am really thinking about. And i dun even dare to say it out, I am so scare that he will interpret otherwise.......he is good at that.....>~<

Two of us are so different, he is the attention-seeker but I just like to be a normal girl. For cosplay, he loves it so much, but that is just a hobby to me. I am trying to enter his world, trying to understand, trying to like what he likes. First time, doing all this stuff and I know I wouldn't able to get inside his world. So tire, feels like to give up, maybe single will be easy for me. No need to think that much , sweet and simple lifestyle. But now no way I can just let him go, I cant. I fall too deep, I did warn myself before that, but that is something I cant control. That is relationship.

Maybe is about the weather, my mood is really not there, alone in my room , my mind is in mess, I dun know what I am talking about and thinking about. I want he to chat with me, but I know he needs to wake up early in the morning. I cant be so selfish, however I dun want to be a good girl, I want to do something crazy. Really !!!

He likes to say "fair" this word, or we like to say that, but please nothing is fair in this world. Nothing is fair!

Now I am going to cry for awhile, no reason , just want to let it out, everything and anything. It is good to be a girl, if you are not happy then just cry it out loud. After that everything will be okay again.

well 2011 just started, getting older,but still cheerful. My r/s is going well, but anata ban a lot of thing which including: some clothes( those that expose too much >~< , pls define "expose") clubbing (I really want to go ,but he will be mad at me for sure >~<) And my result, haha~~OMG~~F***ing~~bad~~~I really need to work hard before my parents force me to break up with him...So ganbatta~~~O(∩_∩)O~

sum up:

1. be a good girl ( dun make anata and my parents worry)

2. study hard (make sure my GPA can move up to 3.5)

3. eat at home more often ( always went out and dinner outside, need more family time)

4. look for some charas that can cos with my anata as couple

5. and try not to cos with other guys

6. .......( To be continue)