Sometime, I just feel very hard to talk to him, I know I am not good at showing my true self to the world. But I dun know what should i say to let him know what i am really thinking about. And i dun even dare to say it out, I am so scare that he will interpret otherwise.......he is good at that.....>~<
Two of us are so different, he is the attention-seeker but I just like to be a normal girl. For cosplay, he loves it so much, but that is just a hobby to me. I am trying to enter his world, trying to understand, trying to like what he likes. First time, doing all this stuff and I know I wouldn't able to get inside his world. So tire, feels like to give up, maybe single will be easy for me. No need to think that much , sweet and simple lifestyle. But now no way I can just let him go, I cant. I fall too deep, I did warn myself before that, but that is something I cant control. That is relationship.
Maybe is about the weather, my mood is really not there, alone in my room , my mind is in mess, I dun know what I am talking about and thinking about. I want he to chat with me, but I know he needs to wake up early in the morning. I cant be so selfish, however I dun want to be a good girl, I want to do something crazy. Really !!!
He likes to say "fair" this word, or we like to say that, but please nothing is fair in this world. Nothing is fair!
Now I am going to cry for awhile, no reason , just want to let it out, everything and anything. It is good to be a girl, if you are not happy then just cry it out loud. After that everything will be okay again.
