feels like to write something,but i can post on facebook, he will see that. Even though i told him this blog before, well i dun think he did save this web.....haha what am i talking about?

Obviously, our honeymoon is over, so now is trying to make sure this relationship can last.

I really dun like holiday, yes I can have a break. Everyday stay at home alone, feels bored, playing games. However, camp is coming soon.... something to look forwards~~~~~~ He does not like I am going to camp.... He say I dun give him security. I dun know what did i done to make him feels that way.... Well maybe I just to "delicious" haha

I want freedom!!! I am tired emotionally, but somehow feels happy, you know there is someone love you, care about you and maybe crazy about you. That means you are not no one. You are important to someone.

Just random thoughts nothing else......

Happy holiday and Happy 4 month anniversary (almost forgot about that) my bad

haha~~he was so shocked and excited by my suggestion. chalet is just a little thing that is in my mind. I have some plan which is even bigger than that. Of cause, I am not going to tell him. I dun know his reaction would be so big..... It's funny to see him like that, talking with no sense at all.

Anata, I love you!

Sometime, I just feel very hard to talk to him, I know I am not good at showing my true self to the world. But I dun know what should i say to let him know what i am really thinking about. And i dun even dare to say it out, I am so scare that he will interpret otherwise.......he is good at that.....>~<

Two of us are so different, he is the attention-seeker but I just like to be a normal girl. For cosplay, he loves it so much, but that is just a hobby to me. I am trying to enter his world, trying to understand, trying to like what he likes. First time, doing all this stuff and I know I wouldn't able to get inside his world. So tire, feels like to give up, maybe single will be easy for me. No need to think that much , sweet and simple lifestyle. But now no way I can just let him go, I cant. I fall too deep, I did warn myself before that, but that is something I cant control. That is relationship.

Maybe is about the weather, my mood is really not there, alone in my room , my mind is in mess, I dun know what I am talking about and thinking about. I want he to chat with me, but I know he needs to wake up early in the morning. I cant be so selfish, however I dun want to be a good girl, I want to do something crazy. Really !!!

He likes to say "fair" this word, or we like to say that, but please nothing is fair in this world. Nothing is fair!

Now I am going to cry for awhile, no reason , just want to let it out, everything and anything. It is good to be a girl, if you are not happy then just cry it out loud. After that everything will be okay again.

well 2011 just started, getting older,but still cheerful. My r/s is going well, but anata ban a lot of thing which including: some clothes( those that expose too much >~< , pls define "expose") clubbing (I really want to go ,but he will be mad at me for sure >~<) And my result, haha~~OMG~~F***ing~~bad~~~I really need to work hard before my parents force me to break up with him...So ganbatta~~~O(∩_∩)O~

sum up:

1. be a good girl ( dun make anata and my parents worry)

2. study hard (make sure my GPA can move up to 3.5)

3. eat at home more often ( always went out and dinner outside, need more family time)

4. look for some charas that can cos with my anata as couple

5. and try not to cos with other guys

6. .......( To be continue)

双子是不是真的爱你，只有他们自己才知道，也许和双子谈恋爱，你时刻能感受到他热烈的爱。但他的痴心，他的死心塌地，是不是在演戏，只有他才最明白。双子在爱情中的表现往往会让恋人认为双子已经爱到了死去活来的地步了，加之双子那些信口就来的甜言蜜语台词，会让人认为双子简直就是无可就要的痴情种。但没有人知道双子这样做也许只不过是觉得好玩罢了，其实他对待这份感情也没那么用心，因为他们对待每段感情的态度没有什么不同，都是深切地爱，无情地离开。用演技表示痴情从而获得真心也许正是双子恋爱的乐趣所在吧。

Normally, I find guys who using perfume are a little too gay or too niang. Or maybe another way, guys should not use perfume......>.<>Specially, when I can smell his perfume on my cloths or on my shoulder( okay, sounds a bit wrong><)

It feels good!

Maybe he is niang in some ways, but I just like it, I like to see he plays around with friends, like the way his talk and his humorous......and torture........very glad that he doesn't know I have a blog, so he cant see this...... haha

Really, I am in love with him, I dun mind move one step forwards, haha crazy thought......However, I dun want to tell him how much I love him.....I am evil girl......^^

To Toshiro/Alex: Anata, suki, I love you more than you think ! BUT I am not going to tell you that......~\(≧▽≦)/~

Cant believe he is mine, I dun know how long we will be together, so I choose not to think about that, BUT sometimes just worry. What if we break up ,what if he doesn't love me anymore. Will we still be friends?

So words for future me: No matter what happened, life still goes on, always move forwards, you are the best actress, so smile!