Sometime, I just feel very hard to talk to him, I know I am not good at showing my true self to the world. But I dun know what should i say to let him know what i am really thinking about. And i dun even dare to say it out, I am so scare that he will interpret otherwise.......he is good at that.....>~<

Two of us are so different, he is the attention-seeker but I just like to be a normal girl. For cosplay, he loves it so much, but that is just a hobby to me. I am trying to enter his world, trying to understand, trying to like what he likes. First time, doing all this stuff and I know I wouldn't able to get inside his world. So tire, feels like to give up, maybe single will be easy for me. No need to think that much , sweet and simple lifestyle. But now no way I can just let him go, I cant. I fall too deep, I did warn myself before that, but that is something I cant control. That is relationship.

Maybe is about the weather, my mood is really not there, alone in my room , my mind is in mess, I dun know what I am talking about and thinking about. I want he to chat with me, but I know he needs to wake up early in the morning. I cant be so selfish, however I dun want to be a good girl, I want to do something crazy. Really !!!

He likes to say "fair" this word, or we like to say that, but please nothing is fair in this world. Nothing is fair!

Now I am going to cry for awhile, no reason , just want to let it out, everything and anything. It is good to be a girl, if you are not happy then just cry it out loud. After that everything will be okay again.

well 2011 just started, getting older,but still cheerful. My r/s is going well, but anata ban a lot of thing which including: some clothes( those that expose too much >~< , pls define "expose") clubbing (I really want to go ,but he will be mad at me for sure >~<) And my result, haha~~OMG~~F***ing~~bad~~~I really need to work hard before my parents force me to break up with him...So ganbatta~~~O(∩_∩)O~

sum up:

1. be a good girl ( dun make anata and my parents worry)

2. study hard (make sure my GPA can move up to 3.5)

3. eat at home more often ( always went out and dinner outside, need more family time)

4. look for some charas that can cos with my anata as couple

5. and try not to cos with other guys

6. .......( To be continue)

双子是不是真的爱你，只有他们自己才知道，也许和双子谈恋爱，你时刻能感受到他热烈的爱。但他的痴心，他的死心塌地，是不是在演戏，只有他才最明白。双子在爱情中的表现往往会让恋人认为双子已经爱到了死去活来的地步了，加之双子那些信口就来的甜言蜜语台词，会让人认为双子简直就是无可就要的痴情种。但没有人知道双子这样做也许只不过是觉得好玩罢了，其实他对待这份感情也没那么用心，因为他们对待每段感情的态度没有什么不同，都是深切地爱，无情地离开。用演技表示痴情从而获得真心也许正是双子恋爱的乐趣所在吧。

Normally, I find guys who using perfume are a little too gay or too niang. Or maybe another way, guys should not use perfume......>.<>Specially, when I can smell his perfume on my cloths or on my shoulder( okay, sounds a bit wrong><)

It feels good!

Maybe he is niang in some ways, but I just like it, I like to see he plays around with friends, like the way his talk and his humorous......and torture........very glad that he doesn't know I have a blog, so he cant see this...... haha

Really, I am in love with him, I dun mind move one step forwards, haha crazy thought......However, I dun want to tell him how much I love him.....I am evil girl......^^

To Toshiro/Alex: Anata, suki, I love you more than you think ! BUT I am not going to tell you that......~\(≧▽≦)/~

Cant believe he is mine, I dun know how long we will be together, so I choose not to think about that, BUT sometimes just worry. What if we break up ,what if he doesn't love me anymore. Will we still be friends?

So words for future me: No matter what happened, life still goes on, always move forwards, you are the best actress, so smile!

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see
V is very, very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can
Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

天秤座
以天秤喜欢犹犹豫豫的个性来说，并不是一个拿得起放得下的星座，即使在受伤的那一刻假装坚强，甚至逼自己快乐，也总有一天会暴露悲伤的心湖。他们一开始喜欢一个人，会恋上那种淡淡的甜味，随着这种甜味越来越浓，当忍不住破茧而出，不管是提起胆子的直接告白，还是委婉的说出爱慕之情，天秤一定早在心中期望了肯定的回应，于是，告白被拒，他们是怎样也无法释怀的。敏感的天秤，实在太喜欢想太多了，也正是因为这样，暗恋对象的一句无意关心话语，一个温柔的眼神，甚至顺带的帮忙，都容易在天秤心中误会为有意。于是，犹豫再三，经过了许多个辗转反侧的无眠夜，紧张的主动告白后，等来的却只是一句对不起，只能做朋友。天秤会突然觉得自己很可笑，原来一切只是海市蜃楼，原来真的是自己想太多了。感性的天秤怎么忘得了这段回忆，想起自己那时的一厢情愿就感到悲哀，就像是沉浸在一场甜蜜浪漫的美梦中，却在最激动的时刻被无情摇醒，被告知，别妄想了，你根本不配。对于天秤来说，告白被拒的痛，只会如影随行，释怀吗？不知道有没有那么一天。
ya that is me~~~~I am just a stupid girl....with stupid dream....now I want to wake up, can I?